I found this website, I don’t know if you follow it already. The lady who runs this project went to Wright State in Dayton and I know some people that know her.
https://www.ilikeyourworkpodcast.com/

I am thinking I want to model fat body of work after this project model, to an extent. I also have other models that inform this project.

I think I need to just pay someone to help me with the website. I thought I could do it on my own but I can’t get it sophisticated enough. My sister’s husband is a web developer so I think I might see if he will help me.

I also think I want to do an open call but I need to find somewhere to have a show. 
I like how she does podcasts with the artist. SO I think I am going to interview the featured artist every month.
I might do the zoom classes too, but I think first I need to get the website to be accessible.

As I start to use writing and my voice more in my performance work. I am looking at this artist.

http://www.lexbrown.com/

I’ve been trying to throw things on this blog to help me remember my research and process when I have to write my thesis. Here is an image of me sorting wigs and outfits for my next Live performance/video project.

“Before the Industrial Revolution, the average woman could not have had the same feelings about “beauty” that modern women do who experience the myth as continual comparison to a mass disseminated physical ideal. Before development of technologies of mass production — daguerrotypes, photographs, etc. — an ordinary woman was exposed to few such things outside the church.”

“Western economies are absolutely dependent now on the continued underpayment of woman. An ideology that makes woman feel “worth less” was urgently needed to counteract the way feminism had begun to make us feel worth more.”

“As soon as woman’s primary social value could no longer be defined as the attainment of virtuous domesticity, the beauty myth redefined it as the attainment of virtuous beauty.”

“Beauty discrimination has become necessary, not from the perception that woman will not be good enough, but that they will be, as they have been, twice as good.”

“While woman represent nearly 50 percent of the population, they perform nearly two-thirds of all working hours, receive only one-tenth of the world income and own less than 1 percent of world property.” (starts on page 23)

“But because “beauty” lives so deep in the psyche, where sexuality mingles with self esteem, and since it has been usefully defined as something that is continually bestowed from the outside and can always be taken away, to tell a woman she is ugly can make her feel ugly, act ugly, and, as far as her experience is concerned, be ugly, in a place where feeling beautiful keeps her whole.”

“Solidarity is hardest to fine when woman learn to see each other as beauties first. The myth urges women to believe that it’s every women for herself”

I’m reading the book, Fat is a Feminist Issue. I almost don’t even want to finish it and I am not sure that I will because the author keeps suggesting that women just decide to be fat as almost some act of rebellion. For me, being fat has never been a conscious and it makes me feel angry every time I read where she (the author) suggests that. If I could have easily become skinny during all the years I have been harassed or was teased for my weight as a child, I surely would have. There is no doubt in my mind. This author even said she’s never really been too much over weight so she’s probably fucking clueless to an extent. While all women probably feel pressure about their weight, thin privilege IS a thing ya’ll.

I pulled out quotes I thought were interesting until I started getting pissed off at this book.

“To be a girl, to be a woman, is to embody the brand of woman which lives within a binary which proclaims thin is ok and other-non-thin-bodies as wanting.” – Fat is a Feminist Issue

Each selfie a girl posts takes on average 12 minutes to get right. Thats not including the time to dress and make up for it.

“More often than not, for the individual, fat isn’t about the physical: it is in their own mind and in their articulation of what they believe fat to be.”

“i began to realize that fat and thin were more powerful as states of mind than they are as literal translations of size.”

“So, here are 49 life skills every modern woman — at least if she’s between the age of, say, 22-66 —”

1. Make at least one great cocktail. I make a mean Pomegranate Margarita, and here’s how I do it.

2. Drink without getting a hangover the next morning. Tip: Line your stomach with bread, drink one glass of water for every glass of alcohol, and don’t drink more than three glasses of red wine.

3. Look good in a photo. Tip: Turn your head slightly to one side rather than look the camera head-on; stand (or sit) straight with your shoulders back; arch your back ever so slightly; don’t press your arms against your body; unless you have a prominent chin, stick it out just a little to accentuate your jawline.

4. Remove unwanted body hair the most effective, painless, and affordable way possible.

5. Dump someone gracefully. Tip: Do it in person, if possible; get to the point quickly, choose a time when the other person isn’t expected somewhere any time soon (like work… or a wedding); give a reasonable explanation; answer whatever questions he or she may ask.

6. Write a sincere thank-you note. Here’s a great how-to.

7. Set a lovely table, no matter how casual the meal is. Here are tips for setting a pretty table for a variety of occasions.

8. Open a bottle of champagne. Like this.

9. Find someone’s bridal/wedding/baby shower registry online. Tip: go to WeddingChannel.com and type in honoree’s name. You’ll find registries for a variety of stores. Do a “find a registry” search on Amazon, too.

10. Send a BCC group email.

11. Dress for her body type.

12. Graciously offer assistance to someone in need.

13. Book a vacation.

14. Hide a bad hair day.

15. Find the best deal. Tip: For big ticket items, always, always, always compare prices online. Then, do a “coupon” search and see if you can find a coupon code to save you even more money.

16. Write a kickass cover letter.

17. Hold a baby.Women And PowerA weekly exploration of women and power.

18. Wrap a gift anyone would be excited to open. Here’s a great how-to.

19. Start a conversation. Tip: ask people questions about themselves, like where they grew up, how they met their significant other, or how they know the host.

20. End a conversation. Tip: If you’re at a party, excuse yourself to the bathroom, pretend like you just saw someone you need to say hi to, or excuse yourself to call the babysitter. Saying you’re going to get a refill doesn’t work as well because the person could follow you or ask you get him or her a refill, too.

21. Pack everything she needs for a weekend getaway in one small bag.

22. Ask someone out. Tip: Don’t use ambiguous language like “hang out.” Have a specific activity and/or place in mind, even if it’s just coffee.

23. Invest her money.

24. Use Mapquest, Googlemaps, or some other 21st century version of direction-giving.

25. Pack her purse with essentials: cash, ID, keys, phone, breath mints, chapstick or lipgloss, and a book, newspaper, or crossword puzzle to keep her occupied during a long wait or when she’s trying to avoid someone on the train.

26. Prepare, order, or pay for a tasty and healthful dinner for herself and at least one guest. Here’s a recipe for one of the world’s easiest, healthiest — and tastiest — meals (pay special attention to #6).

27. Edit, upload, and print photos.

28. Perform the Heimlich and CPR.

29. Choose a ripe fruit. Here you go.

30. Cook and carve a turkey (or tofurky, if you must).

31. Google her date.

32. Negotiate a salary and/or pay raise. Lean in, y’all.

33. Bite her tongue when it’s appropriate to.

34. Get a passport.

35. Reserve a library book online.

36. Leave (or find) Yelp reviews.

37. Find the right bra.

38. Welcome a new neighbor or coworker. Tip: Make a point to introduce yourself and give one piece of friendly advice, like where the best place is to grab lunch.

39. Get herself (and her partner) off.

40. Assemble furniture.

41. Figure out what to tip on a $27 bill.

42. Look for a way out (of a relationship, a job, or a crowded music fest full of hipsters).

43. Find a reputable repair person.

44. Give a sincere (or, at least sincere-sounding) apology.

45. When and how to say “no” firmly (but graciously when appropriate).

46. Dry out her wet cell phone. Tip: turn it off and let it sit in a bowl or bag of rice overnight).

47. Change a tire (or find someone who can do it for her).

48. Give herself a breast exam. Like this!

49. Ask for help when she needs it.

https://www.huffpost.com/entry/49-life-skills-every-modern-woman-should-have_b_5681385

“Until feminists go back to the beauty industry, go back to fashion, and create an ongoing, sustained revolution, we will not be free. We will not know how to love our bodies as ourselves.” -Bell Hooks